hold me and tell me, "we'll burn like stars"

Word of warning, though: if you never post/never comment, if we don't talk on twitter/other communities etc. then you'll probably find yourself removed. Creepy though I am, I don't really want creepers on my flist :)

This is an accurate pictorial representation of me and anyone who says otherwise is lying.

Intro post~

I'm Pippa, I'm 23, I'm English, and I live in my own apartment in the south of England. Hello :D

Most of my flail is done on twitter/tumblr or over IM, so if you want to chat there just give me a heads-up as to who you are~

Everything I say is made of sparkles and rainbows and awesome. I am never sarcastic. I do not eat or sleep; I only know how to KAT-TUN. Ueda Tatsuya is half-angel and half-unicorn and if you kill him you are cursed for eternity.

I communicate in badass and capslock but am also fluent in keysmash.

Comments are screened. :D

じゃあね！

Going! (for dream) tonight - well, the flight is in 6 hours' time, and I'm not taking Joanna with me so I will be incommunicado until the 7th when we get back to Singapore. :D Advanced happy birthdays to mklia, ravyn_ashling and kytez and I won't wish mamechichi a happy birthday because she will be dead. X)

Byeeeeeee~~

johnnys-net:

I know a lot of people are like "read the fic I got!" at the moment but oh, my god. If you can manage to read THIS FIC, please, please do. I am so much in love I don't even know where to put myself right now. *cries*

UEDA, WHERE ARE YOUR SHOES?????

( Junno is molested for being blonde under this cut. )

Clip credits: KAL@gb via JOR@lj

I love how Junno is totally okay about being attacked by his own team. ♥

they're really really lovely people at the hospital, seriously, so kind ;~; ♥

when i had my operation under general anaesthetic (where they stuck metal in my elbow to hold bits together) i went into shock when i came round. i was shaking and crying... i wasn't scared or anything, it was just my body's automatic reaction. apparently it's not uncommon but i'd not experienced it the last 4 times i went under general anaesthetic =/ 5th time lucky?

actually, it was pretty funny. when i woke up, i glanced at the nurse sitting with me in recuperation (whose name is hilary) and said, "is it okay for me to be awake?" so she said "yes" and i... burst into tears.

why?

because kusano is no longer in news.

no word of a lie, i wasn't aware of anything - not who i was, why my arm hurt sfm, what i was doing there (or even where 'there' was) - but i was utterly heartbroken that news is without their notti. after a moment, because i was shaking and my teeth were chattering and i was crying so much, they gave me 6 somethings of morphine (out of the 7 allowed) and put what is known as a 'bair hugger' on me, and eventually i calmed down, and stopped breathing.

obviously, i am breathing again now XD; but morphine acts as a respiratory suppressant amongst other things, so.

v-suke has already explained much of what happened here. after she (and my parents) left, my pseudo-sister (the lovely nurse who is nicer than my actual sister) jacqui took me to the ward where i'd be spending the night (please notice that i do not use the word 'sleeping'). i drifted in and out of sleep from 2am-7am (mostly 'out') and, i dunno, had lots of painkillers and then at 4pm dr. raoul (sadly not an aizawa-sensei but an acceptible substitute) said i could go home, so i am back here at v-suke's again. ♥

does that mean i'm going to make a full recovery? sadly no :( i won't be able to properly straighten my right arm ever again, and i'll be more prone to arthritis in my elbow, and i'll probably need 3 months off work in total... but i'm determined to work hard on my physio, so hopefully it won't be so bad after all!

THANK YOU SO MUCH EVERYONE WHO'S SAID/DONE ANYTHING FOR ME RELATED TO THIS. i am still largely out of it but in a rather large amount of pain (despite the codeine) and my blood pressure was omg-how-are-you-still-conscious!low earlier so i am just going to sort of flop here for a bit until the next batch of painkillers walk into my mouth or sth. I promise, if i haven't already commented i will, asap. just, not tonight ♥

YOU.

I LIKE YOU A LOT.

I know that when you're feeling sad there's often not a lot anyone can do to cheer you up,

BUT.

Please know that I am supporting you from the sidelines,

no matter what, I'll cheer you on.

So just keep going, okay?

As long as you keep trying, it doesn't matter if you don't get everything finished, or if you fall behind. What doesn't get done, doesn't get done.

What counts the most is that you smile, even if it's hard.

Life's too short to worry about things that you can't change, right?

If people make you feel bad, they're not worth keeping around. There's no point in having people in your life who make you feel miserable.

If you're trampled on  If you're pulled out  You should bloom proudly
You should keep on believing  Even if it doesn't rain  Even if the sun doesn't shine on you
With a cool face  With a confused look  If you're lost you should ask someone
If you've lost sight of your dreams you should close your eyes again
And someday again it'll open up for you  Spread your arms wide

Sakihokoru hana no you ni :: 雅 - miyavi :: translated by J. Rains

♥